Today is my Mom's birthday and we hung out at my sister's place for it.
It was fun, we all had a good time and we had pizza for dinner and these delicious cookie bars that my sister made as the cake. I gave her the painting I made for her and of course she loved it. I was even able to bring my little girl Christy up there and she did pretty good even though she's a nervous little thing.
I didn't get a lot else done today. Even though the party was only a few hours. I just felt kinda crappy today. Probably because I had such shitty nightmares about my partner cheating on me. I HATE those kind of dreams and the thing is, I know he would never actually cheat on me but that's not really the point of the dream. It's about trust and betrayal and feeling betrayed. But I don't wanna talk about that. Just trust is something that can be broken much easier than it is rebuilt.
I hope I will be able to get a bit done tomorrow. I was doing so much for so long that this feels like I'm doing nothing. Though I don't think that's true. I did dishes, did the party, wrote a tiny bit, did all of my notebooks and routines, I cooked for everyone, and me and Henry did school. So, that's not nothing but it's a really small list in comparison to what I was doing... That's okay though I need some down days to recoup. And today was the perfect day to do that.
I'm gonna try to go to bed, though honestly I'm scared to but I will fight whatever my dreams have to throw at me today.
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