As great as the beginning of my day was as bad as my evening has been.
This morning, I went out with my Mom and sister. We went and got coffee and talked then we went to the library. I did my makeup today and I felt beautiful though I had some insecurities rear their ugly head while I was out. The library has a free seed catalogue where you can get 4 free seed packets every time you go! Today I got dill, pumpkin, peas, and monarch butterfly flowers. I planted the flowers and the dill because my tomatoes have taken over everything and there is really no space for anything else right now. Not a complaint, I'm super happy about it lol Speaking of my tomatoes, one of my damn trellises fell and ripped the top of my best tomato plant! It even had some tomatoes growing on it so I threw it in a cup of water and it has perked right up.
I got a huge pile of books from the library. Gods I love the library. I want to go back there every day honestly. If I could drive myself, I would. So after that I came home and thought things were going to be good but instead we got into a huge fight and I ended up crying for an hour. I hate fighting, I hate the fact that things get so ugly when we fight and words hurt. Words stick with you like glue and rot away at your feelings.
I wrote a couple things tonight. A poem and I wrote a bit in Cinder and Ash. I shared the first chapter of Cinder and Ash on substack. I hope people like it. I love it. Especially the first scene with the dream sequence.
I did school with my son and cleaned up his room which wasn't horrible but it wasn't great either. But it looks amazing now.
I am really tired but I need to stay up until late because we get paid tonight. But maybe I should nap and get up later. I've been awake for a long time. I got up early today because I'm trying to get myself on a schedule.
Oh and I got an interesting email about a job opportunity and I asked them what to do to move forward so we will see what they say next. It's a remote position, 9-5, and I would be great at it. I know I would be great at it and I really hope it works out. This is the second time they messaged me so I think they really want me to work for them. Gods I hope so. Having that income would make my life so much easier and it would be my own income. Independence and feeling like a real adult again. And no one can tell me what I can and can't do with my own money.
Well, that's about it for today. I'm going to go start to read all of these books that I got.
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