Day Two: why do I hurt so much

I have a love hate relationship with my body. I have fought to love it despite what assholes told me all my life. But it's hard to love it when flare ups happen. When I can't get comfortable EVER, no matter how many support pillows, no matter what position, it doesn't matter I will be in pain somewhere in my body in about 30 seconds. 
This is a nightmare for sleeping. As I said last time, I do struggle with insomnia and have my whole life. When I was little I would sleep walk all the time but thankfully I haven't in many years. But something that doesn't help, is the constant pain! If I find a little comfort, at least enough to fall asleep, I wake up in horrific pain or with something dislocated. Btw it's terrifying to wake up and not be able to move your arm and just have screaming horrible pain throughout that arm. 
Usually it's my neck or shoulder that hurts even with multiple supportive pillows to try and help. This is just one od the disabling things about the heds. 
Even with that set back, I have stuck to my routine well! Morning pages, then I exercised but instead of the treadmill I did some yoga and stretching. Then I had a call with one of my son's homeschool teachers. She was very nice. I have started working on a new story outline which is always fun for me. I made some homemade subs for everyone for lunch. My fiancé calls me the sun queen and my son says that they are better than subways lol. I just tell them it's because I make them with love 💕

I have vacuumed my upstairs and spot cleaned some stains with my carpet cleaning machine. Which took the rest of my spoons for the day but I made a commitment (and have a craving lol) to make my homemade white broccoli pizza. Complete with a homemade pizza dough, ricotta "sauce" and lots of cheese and broccoli. 
I should have made that bill dough yesterday and then I would have dough now but oh well. I'll push through because I really really want that pizza lmao. 
The last part of day two that I need to complete is writing in my first draft for N for Not Human. I'm excited about that because I am at the climax of this story arc. And that means almost one more chapter completed!