Okay! It's here! The day I've been talking about for weeks is finally here!!! And I have started out pretty great today! I wrote 3,071 words in Cinder and Ash today, which is a great start! I am seriously happy with that for my first day total. I'm going to give myself the rest of the night off from writing but I'll put as much as I can into it tomorrow too. I want to front load as much as possible these first couple of days. I was hoping that the story would come a little easier than it seems to be at the moment. But maybe that's because I'm at the very very beginning and I'm not to the parts of the story that I'm excited about yet.
I keep telling myself that it doesn't have to be perfect it just has to be right now. I can make it nicer on the second and third draft, ya know? It just has to be for now.
Unfortunately, my absolute favorite scene is the one at the end. Their final confrontation in the woods, the moment where she tells him who she is and he realizes how much he has fucked up. Like that whole scene is going to be SO MUCH FUN to write. But I write in order, beginning to end, I can't do all that jumping around shit. I'll just get too confused and lose important details and momentum. So, I'm trying to use it as motivation to get to the end of the story, right? I thought that was a good idea, but right now it is only frustrating me.
Maybe I can do some plot points on a board and that might make it feel easier to see where I'm going. Like I know where I'm going, but to see it in front of my eyes while I'm trying to write might help. I guess Post-it has an app that I might be able to use it for that purpose. I'll check after this.
I guess a federal judge ruled that the SNAP benefits have to be given out which is great because I was losing my shit over all of that. I feel a little bit better now. I'm still doing some planning to make some digital products on etsy. I think it is a really smart idea and if a bunch of other people who aren't even artists are doing it, why can't I? And I don't mean any disrespect by saying that but they are little using open domain clip art and icons on canva and selling things that I can digitally draw.
I also made a lovely vanilla cake with homemade cream cheese frosting. That came out great. We had tacos for dinner which was also great. Hopefully, we get those snap benefits when I am supposed to. It would be nice to be able to eat nicely for a minute...
I can't wait until I have my micro farm and we have can have more food stability. I need more stability in general in my life but that is a one day at a time situation.
Add comment
Comments