Girl, I am SO thrown off lmao. Today has been a great day but I have been awake and asleep at weird ass times. I am all over the place. It is now 4:45am and I am not tired and now we are ordering breakfast lmao
Me and Phil have been thrown off since the absolute amazing day we had over at my sister's house. That's being neurodivergent though lol We had SO MUCH fun that my body refused to go to sleep at a decent time that night and then that ran into my body LITERALLY not wanting to shut down even after trying to go to sleep. That lead to like NO sleep at all and when I did get sleep the fucking smoke detector's batteries started dying and doing that obnoxious beep. That beep freaked out the dogs who in turn catapulted themselves on top of me and Phil. It was a whole process to try and get the fire detector down because I am juuuuuuust too short to reach it and I couldn't find any of the stools or step ladders ANYWHERE. So I finally found a stool and got it down and fixed the battery problem and desperately needed to sleep again.
Then I woke up at fucking three in the afternoon! UGH I hate that but I really needed sleep so I don't know. It is what it is ya know lol
I spiraled a LOT this morning because it hit me that it is over halfway through the RDC and the month and I don't feel like I am halfway through my first draft. But I am more than halfway through the goal that I officially set at 30k. I'm just under 20k ya know?
I really need to chill and cut myself some slack you know? It's a bit much some times how hard my brain tries to bring myself down for NO reason. Like my own bully, the fuck man. I am trying really hard to stop that but I am totally my biggest hater sometimes. And then other times I feel like I have too big of an ego. That inner critic is never fucking happy is it?
So fuck it, I need to be happy with my ORIGINAL goal of 30k because that is WHY I SET A GOAL TO BEGIN WITH. I don't HAVE to finish a whole first draft in a single month, that is really not a reasonable pace for me and the way that I write books. And that is totally fine! I will focus on the rest of the month with writing, even with the holidays getting closer.
I have done so much already, I am doing GREAT, really I am so I need to chill and trust myself to keep going and making progress.
The rest of the day was fun, really fun lol. Me and Phil had a very romantic sweet day together, which is always fun and amazing.
I tried my new air fryer and my new stand mixer and both were great! They worked better than I expected which is always great lol.
I haven't gotten a lot of writing done yet but now I'm going to lock in and try to get some more words down. At least break the 20k goal. Shouldn't be too hard because I'm already at 19,700ish. I've got a good thing going now with Ariella entering the castle grounds in the carriage and it being too polished, too perfect, and it is creeping her out.
It's been a fun way to write about how the castle and the grounds look without being too info dumpy, I hope at least. I have been watching a lot of youtuber's who talk about different editing and writing techniques and all of that stuff and I have been trying to use more of their suggestions and techniques that they teach. It has been working well to elevate my writing so far and I look forward to more.
Now to get some more writing done.
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