Yesterday rolled into today, mostly because I had to stay up all night to make sure my father in law was up and was able to get an uber to the airport. Then I was having so much anxiety that something was going to go wrong with him going on the plane and my body started hurting worse than it ever has before.
My body is still sore. Honestly I feel like I've been hit by a fucking truck or something. I don't know if it's from stress or if I was holding my body weirdly yesterday or something but all of my muscles hurt. Especially my arms and legs and hips. It literally kept waking me up and I couldn't fall asleep because I was in so much pain and couldn't get comfortable.
I've been managing to write a little but I realized I'm like 8k words behind schedule right now. I need 20k words written by the 15th and I'm only at a little over 12k. That freaked me out a little and then I told this to my partner and he was like "it doesn't matter" which I know he's having a hard time but that did hurt my feelings.
Then I told him "it matters to me." Because it does, it matters a lot to me. I deserve to have goals and aspirations that make me happy.
Another thing I did to make myself happy today was put a bunch of stickers on my 30 day goal planner. Both on the daily page, which I've changed from using as a second to do list/schedule to a little blurb of how the day went and I get to use my stickers on it to represent how the day went. And on the cover, which I already put some stickers on but I really filled it up.
I have a huuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuge baggie full of my homemade little stickers and I was saving most of them for my Q1-26 planner but then I made a few more. Then that was when I wanted to cover everything with them lol I put one on every to do list, on every day of the 30DGP, and obviously all over the cover of every single notebook I have and the top of my laptop.
I wasn't really allowed to have and use stickers a lot in my childhood and then when I did have stickers, I didn't know where the hell to use them! Then when I started making my own that was when I realized that I really love using stickers and having all of my things covered in a tetris of shapes that fill up the puzzle of the cover.
So I use all of my stickers every chance I get lol.
Well, I'm going to try to write some more words, I'm only at like 900 words and I really need to up the word count here.
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