Today has been... meh...
I wanted to spend the day writing and trying to finish that 5k words that I have left to get to my mid-month goal, but I have only written about 400 words so far because I have been needed by others again. Which is fine of course but... I'm trying to accomplish things too man ya know?
I feel like I'm always needed by everyone as soon as I start focusing on myself more, or I make a goal to do more for me. Maybe that is the universe testing me to see if I will really stick to helping me or if I'll betray myself for others again.
It is what it is, I mean what am I supposed to do? It's always people who I love with all my heart who need my help and it's always like seriously needing me. Sometimes literally life and death issues that I need to help with... like have to help with.
I will try to get some more words today. I work better at night anyways. I have a whole road map written out right now because I'm doing a fight scene from the POV of the villain. I am two post its down and have three more to go. But it probably not going to be 5k words. I think I know a couple scenes that will be after this series of scenese but we will have to see what happens.
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