Things have been okay today. The obstacle that popped up yesterday seems to be not too bad of any issue and should be fixed either tomorrow or Monday. Thank the Gods because that could have been really horrible.
Also some other results came back that goes towards our new home and they came back better than I thought it was going to. That should have lifted a weight off of me but it really didn't. I still feel riddled with anxiety and fear because I need things to be finished. I need things to be concrete, done, papers signed, and things really real.
I had a meltdown over the pizza oven... I didn't know that it didn't come with a pizza paddle and then I couldn't get the pizza into the oven and almost destroyed the pizza and I just started freaking out. I think it's because things have just been so crazy I was one little thing away from losing it. And I was so excited over the oven that when it didn't go perfectly, I broke down.
I wasn't able to do much of my creative projects today because of the overwhelming anxiety. I've mostly just played video games and tried to get myself back regulated after all of those strong emotions. Maybe I'll get a little bit of writing done but I don't know. I feel really drained today but also don't want to go to sleep because I've been having weird nightmares again and they are just ugh. Maybe I should try to fix my sleep schedule though... maybe...
It hasn't been a horrible day but it was a struggle day... alright, I'm going to try to go write a little while I have my computer open.
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