I was able to get a ton of packing and purging done today which is great because we have the junkers coming tomorrow to pick up all of the furniture and junk we are getting rid of. That's gonna free up so much room, then we can finish up all the packing and hopefully be moving on Tuesday.
I'm still super nervous about the move but I feel better than I did last week. I still won't know 100% what's happening this week until tomorrow afternoon, which is CRAZY but that's just how it works with this bullshit process.
I finished writing a short horror story yesterday and I've edited it a few times. I really like it but I asked my partner to read it (it's only five pages and takes me literally minutes to read) and he basically told me no because he isn't in the mood to read. And he won't be until after the move... which like okay I get it, but it also feels a bit hurtful. Maybe I'll just post it since I've been pretty quiet on Substack lately and I do think it's a good story.
Or I could ask my sister if she wants to read it. She's so busy with school though... meh, oh well, I'll just have to be patient. There are so many things going on in my life right now, all of these moving pieces that have to come together just so so that they'll create the right picture, you know?
And my anxiety is screaming at me to plan things, prep things, try new planning methods, do ANYTHING to make myself feel in control of things. It's my coping mechanism for times like these when there is just so much out of my control. It makes me feel better, even if I'm planning something that won't happen for a long time.
I've been running around so much I'm tired, which is crazy because my sleep schedule has been NUTS. I get too anxious to sleep and then stay up until my body is not capable of staying up any longer. Which is usually over 24 hours of no sleep. When I do sleep it's only for two to four hour bursts with either nightmares or really intense dreams, and it never feels very restful...
Maybe in a week or two I'll be able to relax lol.
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