I don't know what my problem is today but I am fucking miserable.
All I want to do is sleep, and sleep is never restful and I wake up feeling just as tired as when I went to sleep! It's getting so frustrating I want to cry. But I don't feel like crying because I don't feel like going through the process of the headaches and possible puking that comes with heavy crying now.
I feel like I have no motivation, no will to do anything or accomplish anything. I'm also getting jealous over the success of others again, feeling like I'm stuck in this spot when I just want to go forward.
My birthday is a week away and maybe that has something to do with it. I feel like no one cares about it. Like we won't have money on my actual birthday and I know that nothing is going to happen on my birthday. Like for my sister's birthday my mom planned a party and stuff and then she got me an early birthday present and nothing else has been said. So, I feel like nothing is going to happen and no one cares about it. And that just kinda sucks. Maybe I'll be surprised and that's not what's happening but it sure feels like that's what's going on...
And obviously that has put me in a horrible mood.
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