I got up on my own at 8am and felt full of energy.
Apparently, I am doing the whole medieval sleep style because that's what my body wants to do. For those who don't know, in ancient times people would sleep for about four hour bursts, stay up for a little while in the middle of the night, and then get another four hours and wake up with the sun. That seems to be what I'm doing. I can't sleep longer than 4 hours in one sitting. But I do do the two sleeps in one night sometimes. I think I'm going to lean into that more. If that's what my damn body wants to do, why do I keep trying to fight it? I'm getting 6-8 hours of sleep in total. That's good enough as far as sleep goes.
Today has been good. I took Chucky up to my sister's house and he had a great time playing with the kids and hanging out with us. We walked up and back which was great. Then I did some dishes and started working on some other house stuff and set myself up for success. Then I got to go swimming with my kiddo and my niece and nephew and had an absolute blast until a storm literally blew us out of the water and we had to go back home. I stayed up at my sister's again for a little bit which was fun. We watched a couple musicals which I have been craving Across the Universe for weeks now but I can't find it for free anywhere! I used to own it but it was on the Xbox and Phil had to sell that to get some flea medicine for Chucky when I wasn't here. Luckily, Chucky is now doing amazing and has like no fleas on him and the house barely has fleas too. That spray really worked wonders.
After walking back home (we walked home from the pool too so lots of walking today!) I did laundry, finished the fifth page in my FLUFF comic and wrote about 1k words in the newest chapter of IBOS.
Then this guy on substack apparently thought I was attractive because he started messaging me and all of the sudden he sent me a kiss emoji. Like wait where the hell did that come from?? I made it very clear to him that I have a fiance and I'm not interested in anything other than collaboration and friendship. Then he cooled off and we've had some nice conversations.
Phil said something to me about not realizing I was such a "hot commodity" but I was like, "what you don't think I'm hot?" and he was like "of course I do, you're the sexiest woman I've ever been with." So my response was "Yeah, so other people see that I'm hot too lol" I'm not like conceded or anything but I do realize that I am hot, because I definitely benefit from pretty privilege. I literally am given things for free... a lot. Like more than I hear other people getting it. Doors held open for me, flirting with me, giving me things, obsessing over me at work and fights of who's work wife I am, harassed by people and people not liking that I say no. Ya know that whole fun of being a pretty female leaning person.
Gods I feel like I HAVE to keep using the phrase female leaning person ever since that crazy bitch and her crazy ass comments lmao. Like I want to put it on a damn button or something. My substack has slowed down a little again with only one subscriber today but that's fine. It's all about consistency, interacting with others, and keep posting my stories. I'll get there eventually. I'm a great writer, objectively I'm a good writer. I've won scholarships from my writing. I'm sure if I wanted to query and get an agent I would be able to, but I have control issues over my creative endeavors and can't give up my grip on them. I don't want people telling me I have to change things or something is going too far. I want it to be the story that I want it to be. That is my goal. That's why I was to be an indie author because I deserve to have the full credit for making these master pieces. And I know that I'm going to have many best sellers and cult classics and people are going to be on the edge of their seat waiting for my next book to drop. I just know that's what's going to happen one day.
Oh, I also brushed Chucky's gross teeth and used the scratching pad that we got him a while ago and it actually worked really well! I have to get his back paws with it but the front ones are significantly better. He freaks out horribly when I try to cut his nails and he didn't freak out at all when we did this method so that's also a vast improvement.
The 75 Hard challenge is going so well. SO WELL. I know it's only day 2 and this is the easy time of the challenge but I am so proud of myself for being able to get off the ground running like this. I finished another goal for today, I have been counting my calories, though I think I need to track my exercise too. I need to know how much is going out versus in, ya know? Oh boy that means I get to make another few tracker pages in my book! Aw man it's too late to do it tonight... I guess I'll throw it onto my to do list for tomorrow and then make them in the morning. Tomorrow is Wednesday, I have to bring out the recycling that my love forgot to take out with the garbage but they don't come until like 3pm and I'll be up by 10am at the latest. Though I'm guessing it will be more like 7-8am again. Oh well, this is still way healthier than I was doing before lol. I have really nothing to do that can't be shuffled around so I can fit both of those things easily into the schedule. Gods I love this, it really feels like I'm getting things all lined up and straightened.
The mailman apparently lost my damn check which I was supposed to get yesterday and it still hasn't showed up. I don't really know what to do about that. It's not like someone else could steal the check, they wouldn't be able to cash it. But now here I am, I was supposed to be paid WEEKS ago and still nothing. Oh well, I'm sure my deities are working on it and I'll get the check just when I need it and everything will be fine because the universe is conspiring in my favor and wants me to succeed. I just know it.
Well, on that note, I think I will try to go to sleep because I promised the kiddos that I would take them to the pool again tomorrow and I need all the energy I can for that.
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