Today was alright, like I wrote a bunch which was awesome. But I slept in too much again and I didn't do any exercise because I have been in a giant amount of pain again today. But I was able to get my pain medications filled today so that was good. So maybe tomorrow I will be able to get back to it with the exercise.
I was able to clean my kitchen which is great because it really needed it. I wasn't able to clean it well over the last few days and it got really dirty because people didn't want to help clean. Oh well, it's MUCH better now. It may not be perfectly clean, but I did a giant amount of it. I'll probably finish the rest tomorrow. It really needs a thorough deep cleaning from top to bottom but it's so hard to do that when I feel like shit and my body is screaming in pain.
That's why I'm grateful that I was able to get those pills today. They don't take away all of the pain but they make it way more tolerable. Then I can get more accomplished in the day and that always makes me feel better. I love being able to check things off my to do lists and hit my little goals.
I'm really proud with how chapter four in N for Not Human is coming. I'm over 55k now and that feels so crazy to me. Like what do you mean I have a book written that is 55k words and over 200 pages long and not even halfway done? It feels unreal, but I am so proud of myself for it. That one really will be my masterpiece, my magnum opus, my most favorite piece that I've worked on so far. I just love it so much.
Sometimes I worry about the gore in it and that people will say it goes too far or that it is horrible for those reasons. I mean it has things like baby and child death in it on page but I will obviously give many explicit trigger warnings with page numbers so that people can avoid it if they need to. It's not performative, it's not done with the intention of glorifying the deaths or murders. We are in the POV of a DEMON, I want people to remember that. HE IS EVIL, HE IS THE BAD GUY, THE VILLAIN. I want him to be the true evil and I want the things he does and says sometimes to completely disturb you and sometimes enrage you. That is the point of it. But I know there is going to be a certain demographic that is NOT going to like my book BECAUSE it has a demon entity that is the narrator. But that's their problem, not mine lmao.
I also got to write more of the first scene in Anything For You Boys. I'm thinking that one might end up being a novella unless my brain goes wild with the middle of the story. But I also have to keep the story moving and not become boring. It is a hard balance man, and I've never written a story in this style before. It's hard to say because a lot of my works have been anthologies for some reason. And they feel different to write than a single story like this. And the idea of having the first scene be the middle of the final fight with the beast and the mid-fight Miranda goes back in her mind and takes the reader through the last few years when she lived in that home and raised her two kids with this beast attacking almost every night. Her husband was killed by it while she was pregnant with their second child. Like this story is going to test my skills in a totally different way than N For Not Human. And I love that.
I have another story that I'm itching to write which is called Lavender Letters which is a sapphic romance set in the 1800s in England. The love is between a flower girl and a lady of status, and it is forbidden because of the rich lady's family. And the whole story is told through letters and maybe diary entries but I originally wanted to only do letters. I just have to see if something comes up that I can only convey through a dairy entry. Probably not, but you never know. Sometimes those stories run away and drag you down a road you never thought you would go before.
Man, this blog is long lol. Sorry about that, the pain medication that I'm on also makes me REALLY chatty. Yap meter turned up to maximum y'all lmao. It's nice to have a spot to just yap it out. Especially since I have oral processing and so that explains why I need to write everything to process how I feel and work through ideas that I have. Autism is fun lol.
Add comment
Comments