Today was a mixed bag.
Some bullshit happened, and know I have to make a bunch of phones calls tomorrow. I have stayed up way too late and I don't think I can fall asleep because I'm anxious now. I feel like things are going crazy. I'm scared that they are going to get worse too, but I don't really know what to do.
I'm doing everything within my power to make things right but there is only so much within my control. And now I'm scared if I somehow don't pull a rabbit out of my hat then things are going to get really bad...
I just... I don't know what else to do... what more to do... I'm just trying to keep going and make whatever I can work work... Guys, I need all the love and positive energy you can send... please...
There were a few good things and I try to be grateful for everything... We got a bunch of groceries, had a good outing today with running some errands. I finished writing and editing Chapter 1 of IBOS which is really awesome. I already started chapter 2 but I'm getting tired so it's becoming harder to write. My mind is super mush from today's bullshit so it's making it hard to write. I did a few more rows on my crocheted blanket. I still have a bunch of the yarn left but I'm not sure what other kind of stitches to do. I'll figure it out, just going with the flow with it honestly.
I also keep playing around with the idea of writing a short story about those lanky weird stretched people from my dream. I think I have a good, creepy angle to write it from that would be cool. I think I will write it, why not? I love using parts of my weird ass hyper-vivid dreams for stories. It works out well because it's almost like I lived through these moments so it's easier to write them out. I can tap into how I was feeling in the moment, the feelings of terror, how I was able to get away (if I was), all of those little details helps me write the story.
Well, I have like two and a half hours until I need to start making phone calls. Then maybe I can take a nap... maybe...
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