I went to bed last night with a horrible headache and woke up to it still being there! I also woke up at like 4am super sick to my stomach which was awesome.
By the time I got up again, I still felt like shit, absolute shit. My throat is itchy, my head hurts, and I am super tired. I think I caught some sickness. So, I tried to take it easy today though I think I probably failed at that.
I am on my last skein of yarn in my blanket which is great because I want to have another goal marked off my list. I feel like I haven't been achieving enough lately... it's been really hard because my body is really hurting and I'm not sick and I have just no energy and I'm trying to do the best I can but I'm struggling with those feelings of not being good enough. Feeling like I'm being lazy when I take a day like this where I "take it easy".
I built a dresser and completely cleaned out, organized, hung and put away all of my clothing that was in the walk in closet in our bedroom. Basically by myself because I like building furniture and I have a lot of patience to do those tasks. I walked my dogs three times today and tended to my garden which is coming along quite nicely. I had three different bags of clothing in that closet and I'm still missing a few items that I used as padding in my boxes to put away but I will do that tomorrow.
I also had a bunch of garbage and recycling to bring out tonight because we had a large pile of boxes to get rid of from unpacking and getting more packages delivered. It was A LOT of boxes so that took a while. And my silly little Simon kept running outside every chance he got so I kept having to grab him. He doesn't run away (thank the Gods) so I just had to call to him and pick him up but with my condition, bending down and standing up causing my heart to race, I get dizzy, and my eyes go black around the outside. Then I feel like I can't breathe and almost pass out. But I'm okay, I know the symptoms and sit down before I actually pass out.
I was looking through all of my art supplies and realized that I only have gouache in Prussian blue and I'm not very good with that medium. So Phil bought me some ink and a glass dip brush to use in my piece. I know what I'm going to do for the art too. It will be a close up profile of a woman's face with closed eyes and flowing curly hair. The constellations will be in her hair which will be the full darkness of the blue with white details. I'm excited about that.
I also finished writing my tattoo story for substack and it will be published tomorrow morning. I wrote a little bit of IBOS and I will try to write and edit a little more in T3HM before I put my computer away. Oh I also made the rest of the pages I needed for April in my time blocking/tracking journal. I really like making all that stuff myself in a plain lined notebook. It really gives me the ability to control what each week looks like and what I want to track and schedule. It really helps me keep going and keep myself accountable. Even if I'm struggling to complete the pages right now because I feel like I'm failing at them, they are still helping.
But alright, I'm going to go do a little more creative chill tasks before I go to bed. Hopefully tomorrow I will feel better and I will be able to accomplish more.
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