I feel a little better today but my body is still in a ton of pain. Especially my back and neck.
I've been still having a really hard time accomplishing things. At least today I was able to help my sister because she was stuck at her house waiting for an a/c guy and the kids needed to get picked up from the bus stop. They were so happy to see me lol It was so nice to hear them yell "Aunt Maddie!" as they came running over to me. It's been a while since my son has reacted that way but I'm also with my son all the time lol. It's not like he goes off to school anymore. Except recently he has started leaving the house at 3:30 and not coming home until 8-8:30. He made some friends that are his age and he takes his eldest cousin with him and they have a fun wandering around. I'm actually pretty happy that he is having some old school teenage experiences. Stuff that I did when I was a teenager, going around and walking with my friends and hanging out out in nature. I love that for him, even if they sometimes stay out too late and give me a heart attack and I have to go searching for them. I still love it for him lol.
Tomorrow I'm going and hanging out with my mom and sister for our weekly outing. I think I'll let mom know about my new tattoo at that time. I don't care to deal with it but I also hate feeling like I'm hiding things or lying. She will probably freak out though because she really doesn't want me getting tattoos but oh well, it's my body.
I get the ink tomorrow so I can finally start working on my art gallery piece and I think that I know exactly what I'm going to do. Oh and now I got a commissioned piece that needs to be completed by the end of next week lol. That's okay because that one is for someone I care a lot about and it is not too hard of a piece to complete. Thankfully, I am a really fast artist. Like I get mad because the art medium won't dry fast enough for me to keep working on the piece. That is why I usually use acrylic paints, markers, colored pencils, and the like. Things that dry fast. I need to learn patience with it but I just get so focused and just want to work on that one thing. Sometimes I can hop around like three or four different projects and that way I'm doing something else while I wait for things to dry but I'm just not good at waiting.
I'm on the last skein for my blanket which is great! I think I'm actually like 1/4 through the skein already. I really want to finish this blanket by the end of the week and I think I'm on track for that. I wanted to finished it before I needed to work on art wise but they might overlap a little. Especially with the new commission on my plate too. I made a new recipe today that I call jalapeno popper chips, which is basically onion rings of jalapeno, stuffed with cream cheese and then breaded and shallow fried. Oh it was so good too. Indigestion be damned, I would make and eat those over and over again. They were SO good. I also harvested the seeds from the jalapeno and some black berries and planted them in my garden bed. The garden is coming along extremely well and I'm impressed with all of the green that I'm seeing and all of the growth. I feel very proud of that garden and the growth. It is my progress report, my results of the hard work and consistency that I've been doing since I moved here. It hasn't even been a month since I planted that first seed and I already have such abundance showing up. I also set up our new a/c today, which wasn't a huge deal because it sits on the floor so I only had to lift it up a little bit to get it out of the box. I also got a few groceries and brought those in on my own but I was yelled at by both my son and partner that I should have called them for help.
Just the way I am lol then I'm surprised when my back continues to hurt and never gets better lmao.
Oh well, I've been trying to rest during parts of the day as well but it's not really helping. Instead I'm filled with guilt and shame because I feel like I'm not completing enough of my projects. But the more I do those projects, to worse my body is feeling and I'm not getting better during the times of rest because I probably need a good three to five days of solid rest and I am not able to get that at this current moment. What am I going to do about it? ...I dunno, probably keep working until I can't anymore.
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