I'm still having a hard time sleeping.
My dreams are full of Evie but I'm too scared to even look at her in the dreams because I'm so scared that she is going to look like she did when I found her... I will hug her and hold her though and at least there is that... But it is making it really hard to go to sleep.
I also had a bit of a scare with my son over a misunderstanding. And that misunderstanding led to us having to have a really hard conversation and it revealed some things that were a little hard to deal with. But he also asked when he can come home which should be tomorrow. I'm glad that he wants to come home. I feel bad that he's been up at my sister's house for so long especially now that that misunderstanding happened. I hope he doesn't feel like I don't believe him because I absolutely do, he just isn't that type of person. I trust him and he's also honest to a fault with me. Like he will tell on himself all the time because he knows that he doesn't need to lie to me.
Like when we were going on our long walks and talking, he would tell me all sorts of shit that he knew I wouldn't be happy about. Like sneaking past fences, and onto construction sites, and climbing on abandoned trains and things like that. He willingly gave all that info up, starting the sentences with "Oh you're really not going to like this" lmao. I always am fair with punishments especially when he tells me the truth so I feel like that has really rubbed off on him.
I miss him being here so I'm really glad that tomorrow he will be able to come home. I hate that he had to stay away from the home for so long but he couldn't be here until we fixed the issue with the fleas. It got really bad after I left and he's super allergic to flea bites so there was no way I could have him here until it was fixed. Which it will be fixed tomorrow. Then life will be back to normal, I'll have my boy, my love, my dog, my cats, and my life back officially.
I am even starting to be able to do art and write again. I've created an art piece for Evie, and I finished the second page of FLUFF chapter 1, and I created the main ghost character in Reunion. I finished writing my personal essay about relapsing from self-harm and I started writing a little more of Finding Bigfoot. I want to start IBOS chapter nine too but I have to do some planning before I'm able to get into that. I don't even really remember where I left off with things. Oh, I guess it's coming back to me a bit. Priah knows the attack was a set up, Joey is helping Ziggy and Ari with the robot clean up, Georgette was trying to be brave enough to tell Priah that she is in love with her, and Loretti is going to the brig. So, I need Priah to find out more about the set up, even maybe another interrogation with Loretti. Joe, Ziggy, and Ari need to have a good fun conversation, and Georgette should have some more yearning moments, but now Priah is pulling away because she's focusing on the set up and she has a tendency to dive head first into things and lose herself in it. There we go, that's exactly where I need to go in this next chapter and we can end it with an alarm blaring that something is incoming their location and fast.
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