I feel really conflicted at this moment.
I went to go get my son from my sister's house and then he told me that he didn't want to come home yet. He said he likes it up there, it's more calm, and he gets to socialize more, that's what he said to me. What am I supposed to tell him? I'm trying to get things fixed here and make everything perfect for him but it's hard to do that with no money and no energy to do anything.
We are going to do the bomb tomorrow. I just gave Chucky another bath because he was covered again and now he's doing better. I also got my period today which is not helping how I feel.
I feel like my son doesn't want to live in this house at all... and I don't know what to do about it because he has to come home but I don't want him to be miserable either... but I'm miserable with him not being here and I feel like a horrible mother.
What am I supposed to do?
I will talk to him more tomorrow, when I'm up there with Chucky. He needs to come home and be at home with me, but there are things we can do to make it better. Like going out more and doing activities, going swimming, fishing, going to the park. Things that we used to do when we were just us. We haven't done that in a long time because it's been harder lately. Or maybe that's just an excuse I make because it is easier to just not do anything sometimes... I don't know. I just feel like I have to do something to fix this. And I don't fully know what that is...
I just know I need to do something...
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